What I don't regret.

Raya is dawning upon us, and I feel excited. :D To go balik kampung and meet all my relatives. Tbh, going anywhere is fine, if everyone else will be there. It's not the occassion or the place, it's the company.

I will never regret what I did in 2008. 2008 was the year I decided to live it up, and enjoy my time before SPM (which apparently was a mistake since I should've concentrated more in form 4 to learn the basics and now i'm stumbling about for form 5). But I don't care. What I did last year was awesome. I tried getting involved in more things, I went out a lot more, did a lot more, saw a lot more and heard a lot more.

And one thing that will always, ALWAYS remind me of the year 2008, is the memories I have about my grandmother.

Don't get me wrong, lol. She's still alive and well (as well as she can get, anyway). She has diabetes and has had it for as long as I can remember. Like there wasn't a time before that that I can recall when she didn't have diabetes, or was able to speak normally and walk normally.

As mentioned before, I decided to be more outgoing last year. This included frequent trips back to my grandparents house in Perak. I usually go with my mother. And most of the time it's just me, my mom and my grandmother in that big house all alone :/. So I started chatting with my grandmother. It took a while, but eventually she got used to seeing my face, and could even remember my name (which is a BIG accomplishment, since she usually forgets her grandchildren's names). o_o

And we would talk, have actual conversations. And the things I learned through these conversations were amazing. I wonder how many of my other cousins know the things I know. I won't judge them or anything, but I don't want to be filled with regret and wishing that I knew my grandmother more on the day she leaves us all.

I will never regret what I did in 2008. I feel like I know my grandmother more now. For instance, I know she likes the colour red. I know that she received many offers and proposals but she chose my grandfather because he asked first (lol).

There was also that one time when I woke up in the middle of the night. I never do this, but apparently I did that night because my grandmother was trying to wake my mother up but she was too tired to wake up. So I did. My grandmother has trouble walking and needs help to get to the bathroom. I quickly got up and helped her, waited for her to finish, wiped her down, put back on her sarong and walked her back to bed.

"Terima kasih", she said.


I've never heard her thank anyone before. Never.