6 Nov.

I think the legs on that statue were carved beautifully.

Ignore the idiot trying to look up the statue's skirt.

Anyway, not in a very happy mood lately. When i'm unhappy I don't like to blog as much, cause it'll make me look like a whiney brat. Idc though, just have no idea what to talk about.

365 x 18...what do you get?

So i'm not officially 18 yet until it's around 6 pm, but who cares. I have ice cream cake + ice cream in the fridge :D I am a happy 18 year old.

Every birthday my mom would recall back the day she gave birth to me. She said on that day, she could just feel that I was about to come out. So she was like "Hmm, rasanya it's time to beranakkan Alisa". So she just got up and went to the clinic lol. Her doctor was all "hmm, okay we'll wait till she's ready" and sat down next to her and read the newspaper while both of them waited for me to decide to come out. Then suddenly...'plup' (actual sound effect from mom) I popped out :D

Mom also always noted that dad wasn't there in the room, cause he's scared of the blood. Dad always retorts by saying "bapak cool je hari tu".

So yeah, 18 years later and i'm still here. I'm blessed and fortunate to have lived a good life till today, and hopefully for many more years. What does being 18 mean though? ._. does it mean I can't get away with stuff anymore? Does it mean i'm legal to watch movies that i've actually already been watching? lolol. No not porn, all those 18+ movies with the gore/politics/secks/violence. ;0

I suppose 18 means that it's time to grow up. I kinda don't wanna, and I know no one's pressuring me to do so. So i'm gonna take it slow and easy, and grow up little by little, at my own pace. What's the point in rushing anyway, it's not like I can grow a moustache.

...maybe I can. HNGGGHHHHHHHH. *looks in mirror*

nah I can't.

I wanna thank my family for giving me the life I had, still have and am going to. My friends, everyone's that's been in my life at one point or another. You've all made me. All of you.

PS: Matriculation still sucks. Love you all!

Matriculation - 4 months.

I stand corrected. Matriculation is tough.

Don't get me wrong, the syllabus is pretty okay. As a physical science student (Jurusan Sains Fizikal) I only have to take Physics, Chemistry, Mathematics and English (with a few minor subjects; Kemahiran Dinamika, IT, Agama and also Co-Curriculum. But for the first semester I'm only learning KD and IT. I'll take the other 2 in my second semester).

I suppose the reason why I find it tough is because of the new lifestyle I have to live. I have to adjust to living in a dorm, being 2 hours away from friends, and not to mention Kedah's specialty >_> the week starts on Sunday-Thursday.

To give you a proper picture of what my life in matriculation has been like, lemme list down my daily schedule.

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6:30 am - wake up. Shower, pray, get dressed.

7:45 am - Leave my room on the 3rd floor (whooooohooo 8 flights of stairs) to go to class.

8:00 am - Classes

12-1 pm - Break for lunch and prayers.

1-4 pm - Classes

4 pm onwards - freeeeeee. Unless if I have extra classes. Pretty rare though considering I have really nice lecturers. But after classes I usually settle anything I need like MIS, buy notes, sending in assignments or visit lecturers blah blah so I usually get back to the room around...

5 pm - prayers, homework, short nap : DDDDDDDDD

7 pm - shower, pray, dinner, moar homework, study

1/2 am (usually) - sleep.

*Lather, Rinse & Repeat.
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So yeah, while I don't ALWAYS have full classes from 8-4, maybe with one hour breaks in between, those are usually spent with homework, or nomnom time. As you can see, there isn't much fun included. What about weekends, you ask? Lolol. Well, at Kolej Matrikulasi Kedah, girls can only go for outings (as in, legally leave campus for a few hours) on Fridays. Boys on Saturdays. You can't wear jeans or normal clothes. Only attire allowed is either baju kurung, or the hideously over-size yellow/purple KMK shirt.

There aren't many places to go anyway. Since Kedah imo is already dull as it is, Changlun is like...man it's even more secluded than Kepala Batas. The nearest fast food restaurant is MARRYBROWN. But when you're desperate, Marrybrown is like heaven sent. I particularly like the Fish & Chips, cause for some reason the cafeteria for my dorm doesn't serve much fish. Desperado.

So basically the closest and cheapest place you can go to for supplies is C-mart (yes, Changlun-mart). RM1 per person by taxi to get there. Surprisingly it has a watson's store haha. There's like a supermarket in it, and then upstairs they sell clothes, computer stuff, even broadband. So you can pretty much get anything you need there. xD

When you leave or enter campus, you need to scan in your student card. Remember that MIS thing I mentioned earlier? It stands for Matriculation Information System. It's supposed to help them keep track of all the students but yeah it has it's flaws which I won't mention right now or else this post will double in length srsly I bet you're already getting tired of reading lolol.

So anyway, to go home, you need to apply for it first. Go to any of the computers on campus and fill in a form online. Check the next day if your application's been approved by one of the campus wardens. If it is, then you can go home. But ONLY after 4 pm, not one minute earlier. (lol apparently the MIS website can only be accessed through the comps on campus connected to their own private server to avoid being hacked. Total bull, you can access it anywhere). So yeah, you have to come back before 7 pm too, on any day. Scan in 1 minute later and your card will be blocked for 30 days. As in you won't be allowed to leave campus for 30 days. 30 DAAAAAYSSSS.

Oh and the guards suck too. They're so mean and irrational. 11 pm you have to be at your dorm. If they catch you anywhere on the ground, you'll get this annoying angry face from them, and they'll follow you around on their bikes while yelling at you. Another new wonderful rule from pengarah, is that strangers aren't allowed on campus, parents included. This means that if you wanna go home, you have to meet them at the front gate. You have to carry all your stuff from the dorm and walk over to the front gate. Parents aren't allowed to drive in and pick their kids up at the dorm. Trust me, it's not a short walk.

Food is quite okay. I spend about RM11 a day on food. Showers in our bathrooms don't have shower heads. So every morning shower is like a nice cold punch to the face to make you wake up. Main lights have to be turned off at midnight. If you wanna study, you're supposed to use the small study light provided. Thing is, the beds near the windows don't have any study lights, which is where my bed is. So when I first registered at the dorm, I told them I didn't have any study light (it was on this checklist thing we were given). They told me that I can bring my own. So I did. Haha guess what? A few weeks later we had a spot check, and one of the wardens wanted to confiscate my lamp because they said it wasn't allowed. wth man. I wasn't in the room atm though so they only took a pic of it as evidence.

meh, they never checked back to see if I got rid of it anyway.

So all of this + the fact that campus is haunted considering it's so close to Thailand, my life there is pretty stressed. Stressed from the fact that I know I have to do really well cause it's only 1 year and it's another chance for me to redeem myself. Stressed cause I can't be too stressed or else certain 'things' will come bother me ;_; Stressed cause I know I can't spend time with everyone, and when I come home on weekends I can only go out with people on Fridays, but everyone's busy. Stressed cause when I go home, I have to divide my time for everyone and everything but myself. So sometimes it's just better if I stay on campus.

Basically, I wanna apologize, guys. I know I haven't been able to come to all your parties, celebrate all your birthdays, or even talk as often as we used to. My mind's just set on really doing well this year, this short 12 months, and this might mean being separated from Penang, my old life and all it's wonders D: it sucks, really but I have no choice. If I don't spend my time thinking about homework I spend it on worrying about how this is affecting my relationships with people (family, friends, ...etc.)

I LOVE YOU ALL STILL K ILY

PS: lol finally an update after months. Long-ass post.

Fact is..

my blog is being spammed by chinese characters e_e I need to make it private. And I know I haven't even been updating but to keep it clean from spam >.> ...yeah, gotta do this.

Later, though. Super lazy.

Errr, so...

I know I promised a few new posts and updates but...

*runs at the speed of light*

Coming up.

Back from umrah. Will blog about it soon, Insyaallah :D

Tetamu Allah S.W.T.

Assalamualaikum.

Lol. Hey so, for those of you that don't know yet, I will be going for umrah for the next few days. Alhamdulillah, I am the only one among my cousins that has free time to go (LOL everyone else is busy with school/college/work) so I will be following my mom, 2 aunts, 3 uncles and grandfather to Mecca.

I'm leaving tomorrow, Saturday, 3rd April and should be coming back around 12th April. I'll be at the KLIA airport by noon, and my flight is like...3 pm or something lol. I will still have my phone with me until before I take off, won't be taking it to umrah. (or else i'll end up playing Tap Tap Revenge on my phone in Mecca |: )

So I know i've gotten into a lot of arguments last year. I just want to apologise for all the times i've acted wrongly, or have made you feel bad in any way. The times when I was uncaring, annoying, the times I yelled at you for something (I think Syariz qualifies for this xD ), and the times i've ignored you when I needed you the most. D: I'm really sorry. I'm only human, I make mistakes. I have my enemies, and though I don't feel ready to apologise/forgive them yet, hopefully I will in the futureeee.

Only reason i'm being so...well, like this, is because i'll be out of contact with everyone for the next few days. And if anything should happen to me then, well...Allahualam. I love you guys okay, and I will abso-freaking-lutely pray for you. (:

Wish me a safe journey, and i'll see you all when I get back :D Bye!

Park Royal hotel.

Out of all the hotels i've stayed at at Batu Feringghi, this has got to be one of my favourite, if not the favourite. I love the pools (there's a kids pool with a slide 8D but of course I didn't use it la xD), a pool with a deep end, greaat for swimming. Shady trees for us locals that aren't looking for a tan, and the beach is so close and cleaan. It's also super near restaurants so it was easy to look for food, and the night market is right in front. If i'm not mistaken, you can also play snooker and ps2 there. The place is just loveleh.

So anyway, I had to stay here cause my dad had to go for some sort of USM bengkel. Went there Saturday afternoon, and Adilla texted me to ask if I wanted to follow her and Ashley to the night market that night. I agreed cause my mum wanted to stay and relax in the room :D haha had fun that night. That creepy black guy that kept bothering Ashley's sister xD he gave her his name card. Apparently he's a director and his name is Chibiko. Lololololol.

So we walked around. Ashley and her sis bought some cd's and all of them bought this cute pen thingy with a diff little animal on the end. I didn't buy anything yet cause I'm very picky and I didn't want to make them wait while I layan my indecisive side xD After we finished shopping, we went to the lobby lounge and Ashley's sis wanted to take pics next to the grand piano. The pianist saw and let her take pictures with the piano lol. We stayed for a song, some Australian couple was having their anniversary that night so they requested the song 'Endless Love' which I only recognize because of Glee xD

After that we all went back. I rested in the room for a while but after that I went back down to the night market with my mummah cause I wanted flip flops. I bought this cute green froggy flip flops 8D childish but I like it.

So the next day I ajak'd everyone else to come if they were free, but turns out they weren't. It's okay la, I spent the whole day with my mum haha. We went swimming in the morning cause there weren't many old amohs then (the sun wasn't very bright yet, not good for tanning) so the pool was practically empty. I think the tourists liked the kain batik I was wearing haha. They were also surprised that it was an actual square instead of the easy-to-tie ones the stores sold. Then we went to walk on the beach for a while, got some lunch, ran into Adilla's mom and her two bros on the beach. Sembang summore all the way till 2 pm. Took a nap, I went swimming again, walked on the beach again cause the sun was about to set.

Gorgeous sight, seriously. I was going to go jet skiing that day but since Sabs couldn't make it, I canceled xD next time la.

Had dinner, then went back to the room. That night we went to the night market AGAIN cause I was still hunting for a new bag and an Anna Sui knock-off purse. I found one I loved.

RM20 only cause the guy was busy reading a camera manual xD if I had bought it the night before when his wife was jaga'ing the store, it would've been like RM30. Didn't manage to find a bag I love. Like I said, i'm very picky. I have to really fall in love with it before buying it. ): not many Anna Sui or South China Sea handbags.

Next day we had to leave already. My parents left me in the room that morning cause both of them had work. So I went swimming alone. Haha all the old wrinkly hairy amoh couples were there in the morning with their freshly boiled lobster skin. It rained afterwards so I just stayed in the room. Didn't get to go sit at the beach ):

Got free lunch at the hotel cause lots of dad's co-workers went back already. Omg. The dessert there. Crepes with a scoop of vanilla and raspberry swirl ice cream, dollops of whipped cream, covered with thick blueberry sauce, and drenched with sweet strawberry sauce on top. Some sliced bananas on the side. I probably gained back all the calories I lost from swimming but it was so worth it.

We stopped by Gurney plaza afterwards cause mum needed to buy some stuff. Turns out we got lots of vouchers and dad cashed in his bonuslink points, so we had like RM200+ worth of voucher. xD I hunted down for a new bag, because my old one is tearing and I bought it like 3 years ago D: Still didn't find anything I loved, until...

I ran into this piece of amazing. I remember seeing this bag last year in KL and I was already smitten by it. It was exactly what I wanted maaaan. Rose fabric, love it. I was a bit hesitant to buy it cause of the price 8| not gonna say how much it is, but the vouchers didn't cover it xD my parents told me to get it anyway because I still have my SPM money, and I've clearly found a bag I wanted after 4 trips xD

So now I has it. I love it so much, I took a nap with it. Haters be hatin'.

SPM results.

Most of you who read this blog should already know what I got. I can't say i'm surprised, cause well- it really reflected the amount of effort I put into SPM xD . Can't say I have any regrets, either. You reap what you sow, lie in the bed that you made etc. etc.

So now scholarships are almost out of the question. Still going to try to apply for some. I doubt any will take me, but here's hoping xD like Miss K. said - "Apply for everything".

Now that leaves me with two choices:

1) Matrikulasi
2) IPTA with Asasi. (which is basically UiTM, UIA or UM)

Colleges are, yes, out of the question. Too expensive. If I have the advantage of being bumiputera i'm going to milk it to the last drop ~_~ haters be hatin'. Besides, average results equals to an average education =| Goodbye the glory days of being in a *cough* prestigious *cough* school.

Anyway, courses I'm thinking of taking are:

1) Architecture.
2) Anthropology & Social Studies.
3) Culinary arts.

After filling in my IPTA online form, I've put down architecture as my pilihan 1. So I might have to go for an interview at UTM (if I get it). Just checked out the website, quite promising. But i'm dreading the one year in Matrikulasi. It's like high school all over again, and i'm going to have to study subjects I don't want to/don't need. But if I want to go to UTM or USM (lol), I'll have to go through Matriks D:

Other than that, I can either go for Form 6 (ch'yeah as if) or apply at one of 3 uni's mentioned earlier. UIA is a no-no for me. UiTM...no. UM is not bad, one of my bro's friends is there. It offers asasi for architecture so that means I won't have to go for matriks >D not waste time and all that.

Blargh. I'm still deciding. Tempted to go to UM for Bachelor of Anthropology & Social Studies. I'm scared i'll get bored of it though lolol.

OH and i've pased both my bike and car driving test 8D woooot.

Three disappointing Thursdays in a row?

My mind feels like a ball of dust with bits and pieces sticking to it right now. Y'know, dry and dusty but with so many things tangled to it that you just can't bother figuring out.

I don't think I can handle having three bad Thursdays in a row. Last week, on the 25th of February, after actually having fun at driving school, I found out that my grandmother passed away. I still haven't gotten over her death, I kinda just pushed it to the back of my mind. But whenever I close my eyes and fall asleep it comes back in the form of nightmares. I'll talk about this later, going to make a special post specially for her.

Today, 4th of March, I finally picked up the courage to go back for another lesson. I felt off today, distracted. Which of course resulted in bad driving. Really bad driving. That coupled with today being my first pre-test, it's safe to say I had a shitty day.

Idk maybe i'm just being too sensitive. But I really patah semangat after today's lesson. I didn't get my usual instructor, Ramesh. He's super nice. For pre tests I have to drive with a Melati school instructor. I got the same guy who gave the 3 hour speech. This Malay man who likes to wear a kopiah. The moment I got into the car I was already nervous as hell considering I wasn't wearing a tudung, and my hair is freshly dyed ._. but ch'yeah. Anyway.

Even turning out of the driving school was horrendous. I had no courage to drive out with all those cars and trucks passing by. He was expecting me to selit somewhere in between the gas-carrying lorries D: I was waiting for a HUGE GAP. Yeah so anyway, gear change was horrible. Couldn't control my speed. One minute he says i'm too far from the car in front and the next he says i'm too close. I made the engine die a gazillion times too, because I couldn't control the clutch and gas pedals properly (like I said, felt off today). It died everywhere you can possibly imagine. He kept pointing out to me how 5 other people drove the car before me and none of them made the engine die even once. ~_~ "Ni mai drive, asyik mati ja. Apa kena ni? Drive camana ni?"

At one point it died right before the traffic light turned red again lol. I missed the green light. So he goes "Mati lagi. Ni bila hampa turn nak masuk jalan satgi, enjin mesti mati lagi skali. Hampa tengokla, mesti mati punya. Pasal asyik salah tekan. Tengokla" Oh God he totally killed my confidence. The engine didn't die, but obv. my confidence did. |:

Was so glad when it was over and done with. Before I attempted to leave the car to run for my life, he goes "test minggu depan, camana nak pass ni? Bawak pun tak betul. Haih, mesti kandas nanti". Duuuuude. Way to demotivate me and kill my hopes of passing.

*le sigh* maybe if he wasn't talking so much I could've actually concentrated on driving instead of trying to listen to what he was saying. Or maybe I am just that bad of a driver xD I just felt like shouting back at him; "MY GRANDMOTHER FREAKING DIED LAST WEEK, TU YANG TAK KENA. ORANG DUK SEDIH TAU TAK? SEDIH!"

Ranting postt. blablabla.

So yeah, that's two disappointing Thursdays down. Today I found out that our SPM results are coming out on 11th March, which is next Thursday.

Oh Dear God.

Justin Bieber.

What-the-hell?
How can you watch his music videos and not feel like a pedophile, seriously. And it's like he appeared out of nowhere, with that stupid video of him looking like he's 11 years old, having a big pool party at his house probably on a school night, dating girls in training bras. SOCIETY, WHAT HAVE YOU CREATED?

There are quizzes on twitter about Justin, and one of them was:

Who Is Better for You, Justin Bieber, Nick Jonas or Robert Pattinson?

Fail. So much fail.

PS: excuse my language.

SPM results?

Okay, so I heard SPM results are coming out earlier than usual. Like around the end of February, instead of March. Is this for real? Is my holiday being cut short? D:

TELL MEEEEEE!

Think smart. ;D

When you go to a school full of people that love taking photos, you'll eventually spot yourself in one of them. Found this picture in Shazana's facebook, last day of SPM xD



Lol @ me.
"Don't worry guys, I CAME PREPARED." *takes out vacuum from bagpack*

Hibernation.

Nowadays, all my thoughts can't be made into a nice long, fulfilling post. All I have are short memories of whatever's been happening the past few weeks. Nothing really worth mentioning about, and if there was, I don't feel like there's anyone to mention it to.

To sum up the past few weeks...

The fail BBQ.


Been going to KL for the past 2 weekends.


Visited my cousins.








Happy Chinese New Year.

...

I don't want to sound like a drama llama, but yes, I'm quite upset that you guys couldn't come to the BBQ.

Yeah I know. No transport. ;_;

Maybe you guys can come in 10 years, yeah?

MY BAG OF CHIPS

True, so true.

Period.

I woke up late today. Real late. I refused to shower until a few hours later.

2 hours after that, all I want to do is lie down on my bed and do nothing, or maybe even take a nap again.

Back hurts, shoulder aches and my lower body feels like it was punched by Arnold Schwarzenegger.

Hello again, period.

I wonder...

New layout. I like this one.
Simple, and cute. Now to just make a header.

or..not make a header? ;D

Layout.

I will change the girly colour. But I can't promise that the next will be any less girlier xD

but I already know what to make as the header.

Driver's license.

So today I went for the 5 hour ceramah. The van that was supposed to bring me there was half an hour late xD and when we got there, it took roughly another hour to get us all signed up -.- the ceramah started around 10 am (I woke up at 6:30 am xD was so nervous).

The person who gave the speech was a Mr. Thega, who used to be in the military ._.

The ceramah wasn't that bad. Wasn't boring. He made a lot of jokes, and liked to 'kenakan' people. He kenakan'd me a lot D: other than calling me Alisa, he also called me Siti Nurhaliza (I guess cause it rhymes with Alisa xD) and St.Georges. ;_; This is because I brought that small ko-op red notebook we got for free to take down notes, and I had to sit in the front row. He saw the notebook, and started calling me St.Georges since then xD wth. I think he was impressed with our school D: I had to answer his questions most of the time. Like I said, he kenakan'd me a lot.

He was also quite the business man. We had to take down notes and about 90% didn't bring pen and paper lol. So he sold pens for RM0.80 each xD

On a side note, going to the driving school alone and not seeing any familiar faces...is really scary ._. plus it's full of...eugh. Malay guys. Those immature mat rempit kind of boys. I hate them. And they scare me.

Craft store.

There is a certain craft store in Queensbay, that I have blogged about before.

I don't like the shopkeeper.

I remember how uncomfortable he made me felt the moment I entered that shop. You know those shopkeepers that follow you around the store because they want to make sure you don't steal anything? The ones that aren't really as "stealthy" as they think.

I've actually tried this out once xD I went into a store, and there was a mirror in front of me. I saw the shopkeeper immediately on my tail. So I walked, and she followed. I stopped, she stopped (saw all of this on the mirror) I took one step, she took one step. I was giggling lolol.

ANYWAY, it's that same uncomfortable feeling. But he doesn't have to move anywhere, it's a small shop. He just stands behind the counter and his eyes follows me around. Everything I touch, he feels he has to explain it. I started to feel like he was treating me like an idiot. But he doesn't do the same to other customers. Is it just me? Is this a racism thing? Malays look stupider? wtf D: that's a big accusation there, but being cooped up in my house for a week has made me lose my manners in society.

So yeah, but it's the only craft store in Penang that I know of. Besides the one in BJ that was closed down a couple of years ago (Now replaced by another freaking computer shop), I don't know anywhere else I can find yarn. Or the tools needed.

So I'm going to have to toughen up, and march into that store, and listen to everything he says, TO GET MY YARN!

List

I've been super lazy these past few days. Obviously the blog layout isn't even finished yet. To the stranger in my cbox, that's not my permanent header lol.

List of things I must do:
1) Finish making the blog layout.
2) Fix the missing photo from group blog.
3) Scan in some pictures.
4) Update blog. Dur.
5) Get drivers license.
6) Get a life.

gg