Cookies.

Sooooo I made cookies today. They're called monster cookies but I don't see how it's a monster. Maybe I did it wrong D: They turned out okay, but i'm not giving them to my neighbour. I'm not crazy >:|

I'm so bored today. I NEED SOCIALIZING. Or at least someone to talk to online. No one's online atm though *sigh*

Oh and, Sabs helped me find Mr.Cheng's friendster profile. Too bad it's on private. The bad thing is that I forgot to put my profile on hidden, and right after I viewed his profile I went to bed xD damn cough medicine made me pengsan. I don't even know how I got into my room x_x woke up at 5 am today. So when I woke up that morning going 'WTH?! HOW DID I GET HERE?!' I realized that my comp was still on O_O and Mr.Cheng saw my profile T_T

We should really try saying 'Good morning Mr.Cheng' at school next time we pass by him instead of 'Good morning sir.' xD

I just realised that there are 3 blogs with Mr.Cheng's name in it. This is so not right. -scribble- Teachers are not allowed access to the internet. It's just weird. Can you imagine looking at your msn and suddenly that little box in the corner springs up stating that 'Duck is now online'?

Ohhh and I might be scanning all my comics that I drew at the back of exam papers ^__^ they're cacat, and some probably have drool on them from sleeping after exam.

-remembers the time when Mr. Ang tried to wake me up and sabs laughing at the other end of the class-

No. NOOOOO. I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED! Oh well.

OH and I got this little lantern from Ikea where I burn these lavender tea candles in them : D dad told me to put it far away from things that can get caught on fire easily. Like as if my room doesn't have enough cloth in it (curtains, bed, bags, towel etc.) I CAN GET CAUGHT ON FIRE EASILY. Spontaneous combustion ftw.

Friday was good. Most of teachers didn't come into class and Mr. Ang didn't kacau me during BM because he thought I was sick (which I kinda was. ;o) and I realized that Sabs also laughs by herself when going through her daily routine. Our humour and inside jokes are so powerful that they still work when we're apart >: D

Oh and my stupid cat put her babies in the drain again. STUPID. Those are little baby Jo's :( you're supposed to take good care of them! One already died, only 2 are left and they were the cutest thing in the worldddddd with their round heads and round eyes and soft little bodies ^_^

My head feels so berat now and i'm coughing too much. Mom's like 'yeah yeah okay' when I actually got it from her xD she drank my water one day and I think that's where I got it >.>;

Obv. i'm posting a super long blog because this is my S.O.S to the worlddd! I need someone to talk to xD someone interesting though. If you're gonna talk about add maths, gtfo.

...unless if you're that cute guy from my add math tuition who only came once :[ FY!

I swear too much in my blog. Toooo muchhhhh.

Well, let me just roll over and die. My teeth hurts and my head's pounding and I feel like my body fat is expanding all of a sudden and closing my eyes =_=

I gotta check for dengue symptoms btw after that guy in Lorong 1 kena. Poor guy. OH AND POOR FISHIES! MY FISH! NOOOOO. All the original mommy and daddy fishes died after dad transferred them into that teeny tiny little aquarium because they were spraying that day. And I think some of them were gonna have bebehs :[ kesiannnn. To not waste them, I tried giving them to my cats, lol. But even they wouldn't eat it. So I buried them next to Jo. In case Jo wants to eat fish in the afterlife.

Oh and I haven't even started on my homework yet. Probably because I was too excited since piano class was canceled this week and stuff. Too bad I couldn't come to school and watch all the teachers line dancing though. Could've been fun ._.

BAHAHA LINE DANCING.

Also, i'm looking for a gay boy friend. No not a boyfriend, just a friend who's a boy.

who's also gay.

gay.

plz.

Ooo I should ask mom if I can go to the musical. Alyssa would probably try to exploit me and make me buy more tickets D;

Er..I think you guys would get tired if you read any more. So i'll stop here. Next post will be filled with comics and drawings :D ttfn!

-Pochi-

Damn it.

Ahaha, I know Sabs is mad at me for not coming to school. You know how I am :D

Tagged T_T so that means I have to fill this out?

001. Real name: Alisa Binti Azlan (people keep forgetting there's a Binti)
002. Nickname: Pochi, Sha, gemuk (yes, lol)
003. Married: HAHAHAHA.
004. Male or female: Female. I'm not confused about my gender tyvm.
005. High school: SGGS. Some Girly Girl School.
008. College: Dunno yet.
010. Short or long hair: So close to being long.
015. Are you a healthy freak: What? I don't like vegetables.
016. Height: Shorter than Sabs. Yes, sabs is the measuring point for everyone's height.
017. Do you have a crush on someone: One? I have more than one.
018. Do you like yourself: Perhaps. Am I an interesting person? When can I meet myself?
019. Piercings: No, scared of needles xD
021. Righty or lefty: Right. I don't write with my poop hand. (No offense to lefties)

First..
022. Surgery: Just stitches. Oh wait, maybe there's one, but I don't wanna talk about it.
023. Piercing: No piercings!
024. Person you see in the morning: Mom or dad, before I slam the door in their face.
025. Award: Can't remember...to think that since I don't get a lot of awards I'd remember the few ones I did.
026. Sport you join: Uh...crawling.
027. Pet: Cat I think.
028. Vacation: I dunno.
029. Concert: Can't remember either.
030. First crush: Haha, I think it was my neighbour.

Currently..
049. Eating: Nothing.
050. Drinking: Saliva.
052. I'm about to: Type.

Future..
058. Want kids: Mebeh.
059. Want to get married: Of course.
060. Careers in mind: Pastry chef or something

Which one is better..
068. Lips or eyes: Lips for some reason.
069. Hugs or kisses: Both is good.
070. Shorter or taller: Taller.
072. Romantic or spontaneous: Bit of both. Perfect guy. Oh wait, they never mentioned anything about guys xD -gatalness exposed-
074. Sensitive or loud: Wut? Both I guess.
075. Trouble maker or hesitant: ...lol.

Have you ever..
078. Kissed a stranger: Nope.
079. Drank bubbles: Not my favourite drink.
080. Lost glasses/contacts: I don't wear either of them.
081. Ran away from home: No. Why would I? Home is where the heart is. Also money and food.
082. Liked someone younger: Yep. Haha, kesian me.
083. Liked someone older: DUH.
084. Broken someone's heart: I guess. Sorry.
085. Been arrested: No. x_x
087. Cried when someone died: Yes.

Do you believe in..
089. Yourself: At times xD
090. Miracles: Yeppp.
092. Heaven: Yea. Why not?
093. Santa Claus: Mebeh.
095. Magic: *joins in the singing with sabs*
096. Angels: Mhm'

Answer Truthfully..
097. Is there one person you want to be right now: Yes.
099. Do you believe in God: Yes.
100. Tag 5 people:
a) Ashraf.
b) Alia
c) Syahira
d) Shazea
e) Alisa

Oh wait, ahahaha. I tagged myself. Don't care la.

Ah...I had so many things to talk about but i'm busy xD i'll make another entry laterrr.

FIERCE!

Omg omg omg omg omg.

No! Tomorrow's Monday! School! NOOO!! The holiday is over way too fast...I forgot all the homework I had to do (except Seni, which I totally did last minute and it looks like crap), don't want to get my marks cause i'll freaking cry at the low marks xD and don't want to face the teachers! >_>; I know at least ONE of them will malukan me in front of the whole class.

I'm so unmotivated to succeed...school's been so stressful >_> some teachers make it more stressful. Jake's an ass. Yes I felt like saying that because i'm talking to him atm and he's being an ass like he always is. You probably don't know him, so don't mind me talking to myself.

OH BTW! There's a reason I put 'fierce' as the title of this blog. Project Runway. Sabs, if you're reading this, seriously, seriously stare at the picture above and tell me who does it remind you of xD or, i'll probably tell you by tomorrow rofl. Still, look at the picture! The nose, the glasses, the jaw. Omg.

Anyway, on to a more serious note:

There comes a point in someone's life when they've seen so much negativity that it breaks them down to a state where nothing matters.

Nothing.

Everything is acceptable. Nothing bothers them.

Even in society, something that wasn't acceptable last time is now something common. Views can change, it changes with time, and with modernization. Back then, no manners was considered despicable, rude, insulting. Today, no manners and everyone just thinks that that's how people are and lets it be. So even if you're rude people won't care. I'm all about speaking your mind, but you're saying it in a way that's so insulting as if your opinion matters and is important that others! There are boundaries. If everybody did what they wanted, said what they wanted, without any consideration for anyone else, what kind of world would this turn into?

Another thing, look at how people today think that s** is nothing. It's NOTHING! People do it everyday over there, and you can just leave in the morning. It's all fun fun fun. What's the point? It's no longer something intimate. So what special connection do you have? You probably won't even want to get married. Make babies and throwing them in the garbage is probably the best way for you isn't it?

I am not one to make such bold statements. I cannot handle the responsibility but by the way I see it, this is how the western world is. And I am so afraid that Malaysia will fall into the same fate. Everybody would be rude, minding their own business not socializing, everybody would have that 'F**k all' attitude which is horrible. What other people say about you does matter, because it's how people view you, which means that this is how you're portraying yourself. Of course, if you know the person is just saying that to make you mad, then ignore it. But if someone you care says it, you know there's a problem. Don't get angry at them or say that they've betrayed you and that you should accept how they are and stuff. They're trying to help, but now you've driven away the person who cared enough to let you know. Gj (Y)

I guess part of this is still ranting, lol. Because a few people have done this to me (no, not the 2nd thing. I know what you're thinking sabs) and it just makes me mad when they think I don't care. Because I do! And I wish I could've said this to them..but they will no longer listen. So here's to Aidan, Cj, Jake, Robbie and Lauren. You've taught me things I wish I never knew, and one of them is that people are starting to care less. This is how the future will be.

BLAH.

-goes to bed-

Alla marcia.

alla marcia

alla marcia

ALLA MARCIA

ALLA MARCIAA!!!!!

IT MEANS IN A MARCHING STYLE. MARCHING!

I can't believe I got that wrong. I spent hoursss hafalling everything and the one thing that isn't in the book comes out. :[ *breaks pencil*


Anyway, that was a short rant. Now, just when I thought there wasn't any homework for the holidays, I remembered there was xD seniii (dang, banyak kerja), got BM, English drama to work on, PJ and BIO also.

Sabs wants me to join English lit. tuition. But the good points and bad points ah.. xD

Good points:
1) Fun [according to sabs]
2) Can get extra A [that's even if I do get an A]
3) Materials paid for
4) Sabs is there to help [this is a good point according to her xD jk la]
5) Teacher is nice.

Bad points:
1) The time messes up my schedule.
2) So expensiveeee.
3) Cannot guarantee an A.
4) Parents might not approve, takut I stress.
5) Possibility of being stressed.
6) Got boys there.

HAH! Take that pros and cons scale!

Anyway, still I don't think my dad would agree. He'd just be like. 'Takyahla, bapak ajar je' then goes and hold an imaginary scull in his hand. Rofl.

Sooooo...a few days left till school starts again (oh how I dread those days) and so much crap is going to happen then. For instance, my stupidness + blurness made me put calcium-24 instead of sodium-24. HOW CAN YOU GET THAT MIXED UP?! *slaps self*

So chemistry die already. Add math also. Bio also...let's just say everything die already except seni and english. And i'll get scolded by the teachers T_T

Then there's the homework yang tak pass up lagi. Like the sejarah note books *cough*. Er..she wouldn't accept. If I get low marks, then she'll potong some more. Life is cruel :[

Oh and I wanna talk about some movies I watched which are Jumpers, 10 000 B.C. and Anak lol. Here goes.

Jumpers.

The ending sucks. Or at least disappointing lol. You'd expect hayden to use his powers to save the world or something, like those people in the flood they showed earlier on, but NOOO in the end, he just takes his gf jalan2 around the world. THAT'S ALL! Stupidddd.

10 000 B.C.
Hahaha, I think the wise mother's soul went into Evolet so that SHE can date D'leh. >:D ahahaha. They still didn't want to show the "God"s face even after he kena cucuk and rolled down the stairs. And so funny when that little guy tried to throw the spear. The music that was playing then was like, so heroic and looked like as if he was finally 'going to become a man' but then he misses xD

OH AND THE NAMES ARE CUTEEE. Tictic (^o^)

Anak.
Lol, looks like Ju-on or something. There were only 10+ people in the whole theater. So me and Shazea just ran around and sit wherever we liked and gelak2 summore 'cause we were sitting far away from the others. And wth at the ending xD a bit confusing, but looks like the kid went back into the mother. Yes that's right, through the 'entrance'. Lmao, ew.

Oh and books i've read (not many) Does My Head Look Big In This, 10 Things I hate About Me, The Houdini Girl:

Does My Head Look Big In This
I don't see why mom wouldn't let me buy this book, it's controversial but it's nothing I haven't heard of. Try going to a western forum and tell everyone you're a muslim :]. Anyway, the questions are so funny. It's what I do sometimes too. It's about this girl Amal, who decides to wear the hijab (or tudung) full time. And people are like asking if they can touch it, or if it's hot wearing it, and if she wears it while she showers and sleep (AHAHAHA, lol.)

10 Things I Hate About Me
Now this, this is a more like, open-insult kind of book because there are characters in here who are racist and aren't afraid to show it. You can see how people can think differently of someone right after they discovered something. Like the girl in here is Jamilah, and a lot of guys like her, but when she tells them she's muslim (or atleast shows that she is) they start to act differently towards her, even when she's still the same. This is something I went through (although it's just friends, not guys that like me because, well, guys don't like me xD) And apalah to Peter, you know she's muslim and you go and kiss her still. And then the brother still drinks and goes clubbing so what happened to him I dunno.

The Houdini Girl
The uncle that lent me this book was so nice ^__^ anyway, this book has a lot of swearing and inappropriate stuff in it. So don't read it lol. I was just that bored. But it's still a good book, I mean...it talks about this girl who basically had the worse childhood ever and was forced to become a hooker when she grew up. All this was told by the author after she died and when her bf starts to investigate.

Oym' doyin. (I'm dying)

Lol, cute.

Okla, i'm tired already and i'm gonna go bake some chocolate crinkles ^__^ byeee.